Long Drive, Short Road

Life is like a long drive down a short road.
Your car when you were born,
had no suitcases inside.
No tears in the leather of the seats,
and the road is flat with no bumps.
And straight with no turns.
But as you grow older the road gets windier
and bumpier so it resembles a rollercoaster.
and you stop at more restaurants along the side
to enjoy a yummy milkshake of happiness.
The bagage in your car grows till you can't always see out the back window.
So a cop pulls you over and says to unload.
To pull out the stress and the heartbreak suitcases.
The rips in the leather seats start to form,
but whenever you get a chance you repair them
like you do a heart thats broken
or a pair of jeans that your mom says the hole in the knee is to big on
or a dolly with a missing head.
Sometimes the road gets straight again,
if only for a little while.
Sometimes you get lost because you know theres no guide
or map
to the jorney of life.
One day the road will end.
And at the very end you will have no baggage
There will be no more holes in the leather of the seats
because you already mended them.
And there will be no more twists or turns.
Or bumps in the road.
Instead they'll
be a huge parking garage
You'll park your car.
And then you finally realize that the bumps
the turns
the tears
the baggage
th milkshakes
the cops
was worth it
because no matter what you got to the destination in time.

-Amber White

Love is in the Air... I Must Be Immune...

So I have noticed lately, as you can tell from my previous post, that guys and girls have been really... akward around each other for a week or so and all the girls seem to be talking about is boys and likewise. What I don't get is why so suddenly it occurs. Sure, the topic has come up but now it's the main discussion point. Maybe Valentine's Day has gotten to everyone's head or perhaps the good ol' "Spring Fever" has come out to play early. Whatever it is, I'm missing out, big time.

Now, I'm not able to date, as I said before. In complete honesty, I don't quite get all the real harms in dating as a teen, but my parents feel that it's inappropriate and that I just can't do it. I've been in positions where I like a guy who likes me back, I mean, we're only human, no matter how old you are (especially in the teen years where hormones are racing like wild horses), but I always have to say no and move on. Of course I'm ALWAYS disappointed and I'm not sure if my mom knows when I've just had to turn down a guy because I won't talk to her for like a week, but besides that, I don't really feel... in love with anyone. I mean, what teenage boy could you ever fall in love with? They've got such fickle hearts and they don't even look good because they either have loads of acne or their personalities are just hideous in and of themselves. Either way, I don't get the hype at all and I'll explain why.

So you know how many times  this year I have been pulled aside in the mornings to be told that one of my friends really likes a guy and is talking to them and then the next day they start screaming and jumping up and down, saying that they are finally together? Am I missing a link? Okay, let me get this straight, you just decide to like this person and then, as they always do, they text you saying "let's be together" and you think that's so cute and charming and then you're together... Wow... Now, I'm not judging anyone because once upon a time I might have done the same thing, but I've seen a friend of mine get hurt very badly off of this same scenario and since then I vowed to not let that be me. I remember that he told her that she was his world and that he was so in love with her and all I remember was her always being with this guy who, to me, didn't look as interested in her as his texts described. Finally, after our winter break, she sees him locking arms with another girl and just walking past her saying that they were done. She was devastated and I don't think she has gotten over that just yet; you know, that was about two year ago. Luckily for me, I have a lot of respect for the male mind, especially in the teen years. They look at love like they do football; you've gotta play the field and eventually, you'll make a touchdown, do a dance, and move on. Therefore, in having this understanding, girls need to allow some room for an unfortunate event like a jerk face for a boyfriend. Granted I've never been in a relationship, so I don't know anything, but I'm sure I'm not too far from the truth. But girls, don't you find it odd that a guy expresses his love for you through a text when he sees you every day? Seriously, I would say no, even if I did like him, until he has the confidence to do it in person.

Now something that I suck at is rating people. You know when your friends tell you to rate someone on a scale of 1 to 10? When I rate, though, I don't quite know what to give the person because I look at people like this; everyone is seen off of two main things- looks and personality- and how you are seen upon those two things can get you either very far or not so far in life. Unlike most, I think that personality is at least worth over 95% of the overall person, leaving less that 5% for their good looks. That being said, I would rate upon two scales, add them, and then divide it by two. For instance, in rating... Joe Jonas, for example, I'd give him an 8 for good looks and most likely a 2.5 for personality. That's 10.5 out of 20, divide it by two and then Joe Jonas is a 5.25 out of 10. Sure, it's the geeky way of getting things done, but I like it; it's more accurate. Now, if someone's ugly, but their personality is amazing, I'd give them a 10 for personality and maybe even a 1 for looks, and they'd get a 5.5, still better than Joe Jonas, right? I'm sure half of you wont get it, but don't hurt your head; it's okay. Another thing I don't like is when guys ask you what you would give yourself. I am very confident about myself, so I'd maybe say a 9.5 (to be generous) with my looks and a 10 for personality, giving me a 9.75 out of 10. Good, huh? Only problem is that ya'll would probably call me an arrogant idiot afterwords, no matter how honest I'm truly being with myself. In any event, you can't really rate someone accurately; at the end of the day, the world is just a mere perception. Heck, once upon a time the world was perceived as flat! You never know what's on the other side of "reality," so why make such a big deal about it?

"Love" is such a strong, irritating word; I mean, love is JUST like hate. They are two extremes that are often used in such casual conversation. For example, I love those shoes or I hate  that drink. Really? Do those shoes really require the word "love"? Maybe you find them very nice and fashionable, but love? How about "hating" some sort of food. Maybe it doesn't please your tongue, but should you really hate it? Maybe I'm over thinking this, but I just think that "love" isn't in the right context with anyone in their teen years. I even hate hearing my friends saying it about their "boo"s. "Oh, I just LOVE him, he's the greatest guy ever!" "She's the LOVE of my life; I LOVE her..." blah. blah. bl...ah... It's not only disgusting, but it's just... NO! It sounds so weird. I would hate to be told that or to even find that coming out of my mouth. Now, friends say that they love each other. Before I get off the phone, we might say "Love ya!" and that's okay because girlfriends are like sisters to me, so in a family or friend sort of way, "love" is never too strong of a word, but when talking about a boyfriend or  whatever, it sounds terrible. Maybe you feel as if you love this person, but I don't know. I mean, after a week of going out you're in love? Give me a break, man. Maybe I'm missing something...

As you can see in the title, this is just MY opinion; I'm sure most of you wont agree, but that's okay, right? Let's not forget that little inexperienced me is on the outside looking in. For all I know, I'm talking a bunch of garbage and later on, when I start dating, I'll rethink my words, but as for now, I think I've gotten my point across. Love is in the air, but perhaps I'm immune to this love bug...

Love Always <3,
Katrina Lowell

Going on stage!!!

Butterflies in my stomach, but they couldn't get any more beautiful...

Love Always <3
Katrina Lowell

Hate To Be Forward...

Why is it that guys are so comfortable with being so forward. I mean, sure you can tell that they are confident with themselves, but for girls like me, at least, they come across as a little too full of themselves and unnecessarily disgusting. Now, I'm not only writing this to get a "preach it!" in from the girls that follow me, but for the guys that tend to visit my blog once in a while. So here I go, starting with some of the worst forward comments you can get, some personal and some from my friend's texts.

1) Gurl, u look gud!- Excuse me? First of all, I've got a name, so address me as Katrina and even after that,  that's the worst way to describe a girl to her face OR through a text. It is possible to say this in a gentlemanly way. "Oh Katrina, you're really pretty today" could work, couldn't it. At least I feel a lot less like any other girl you like and more like an individual and instead rolling my eyes, saying, "dude, give me a break" I could give you a smile and say a polite "thank you."

2) Can I b ur 1st kiss?- NO you can't! Um, there are a few things to look at in this comment. First of all, how presumptuous are you to say that in kissing you you'd be my first. Sure with me that's true, I'm not gonna lie, but in complete honesty, you just don't ask that question; it's really...no, just don't. Second of all, who are you to say that I would want your kiss? No way, dude. I don't care about any of my preferences at that time, whether I think you look like a god and my parents weren't all over me about dating or whatever, by asking me this question, not only have you been bumped to the bottom of my list, but you get an almost automated "no."

3) U want me 2 b ur boy?- Probably not if you just come out of the blue asking a stupid question like that. What am I supposed to say in that instance? "Sure, of course! You seem like such an amazing guys by asking me in such an arrogant tone." No; boys, you would most likely get a no. I'm not even a fan of a guy coming up to you and asking if you like them. That's just not okay. If a girl likes you enough and wants something to happen, then she'll tell you. Now if you want to ask her out on a date, this is a really bad way to do it as well. I know some guys that have gone up to my friends saying this to ask them out, but instead of being charming, they seem really pathetic and they also get a "no way."

4) Is it hot in here, or is it just you?- The all time favorite for idiots everywhere. That is one of the famous so called "pickup lines," but the only thing they pick up from me would be the dirt that I dish back out at them to make them feel shame. No, seriously, what does that even mean. Sure, it's like the first example, but it's just corny in more ways than one and besides, how do you expect a girl to respond? "Thank you?" Even that wouldn't work because it's more of a question than a compliment, right, so you either have to say yes or no and by saying yes you are implying that you are hot and you don't wanna seem vain and if you say no, you're saying that you aren't good looking, so that's just... yeah, it's one of those things you don't touch. As a girl, in being asked that I would roll my eyes and walk away. It doesn't even deserve a response.

5) What's your phone number? Facebook? E-mail address?- Come on now; when you guys ask us for all this stuff we feel like we're being interrogated rather than... well I don't even know what you guys hope to accomplish by saying this. I know that by giving you this stuff, you'll add me like all the other girls you ask and not EVER look at my contact again. Number one, that's just a waste of MY time as well as yours and number two, that's just unnecessary. Really... Besides that, what if I don't wan't you to have my information? I don't have a cell right now (ugh, I miss texting, gotta wait til' March when one from the states is brought back for me), so you'd have to call my house phone. My parents don't allow boys calling, so that would not go down well for me OR the party on the other end. In fact, I've vowed to one day have a guy "coincidentally" call me when my dad is home so that he could answer and get schooled by my dad. Oh the laughter that would be had :). I don't have a Facebook and e-mails are a funny thing. That just makes it easier to get really personal. I look at e-mailing as a modern, quick way of sending letters and in sending letters, you put a lot of stuff in it that you probably wouldn't do through text, although I've been using gmail as a texting device because I don't have a cell right now and I need to be able to talk to Tracy nonstop, LOL. But besides that, that would not be comfortable for me. All in all, I would usually, to be nice, make up an excuse like "I don't have a phone, e-mail, or a Facebook" which is partially the truth, right?

Those are only a few, and those are only the ones that barely even get you upset. They shouldn't actually, I mean I just brush it off, but I just had to blog this because I want you boys that read this to be more mindful of how they come across to the girls you are trying to swoon than how cool you think you sound. It's something that really should be made more public. You know how there are those really nice guys that know what to say and when to say it and yet we girls tend to prefer the boys that talk like the boys I've described above? Do I get it? No... But you good guys keep it up; we need more of ya'll in our society ;).

Love Always <3,
Katrina Lowell

Status Updates/ Last Friday Night Moment

I change my status very often and I love my updates, I do. So I thought that maybe every time I change my status to something interesting I could share it with ya'll, so here's my favorite on of all time:

DON'T DRINK AND DRIVE! Running into the street with an alcoholic beverage in one hand and hailing a Taxi Van with the other while screaming because you are clearly intoxicated is more responsible, LOL. True talk; saw it with my own eyes last night. She definitely had a Katy Perry "Last Friday Night" moment...

Love Always <3,
Katrina Lowell

Study Bunny...

So as you can tell, school has once again taken over my life. That has meant no blogging and very little time to go  on the computer and talk on the phone, so yeah. It's so exciting, right? Yeah, no way. I feel that studying is just something that is just very hard to do and it's not fun at all. I have a specific way in which I study; I create study guides. So it's pretty much me just typing out that I need to read over the topic that will be in a test, then answering some comprehension questions, and finally vocabulary. It doesn't seem like much, but in studying for a History test over the last weekend, I spent over three hours just reading. And to top it off, my friend wanted me to phone study with her, so that was like another four hours. I was depressed...

Anyhow, so yeah, I'm sorry for my absence. I wish that I could devote all of my day to blogging; I mean, I'm a blogger and writing to ya'll is pretty much my way to vent, sort of. I feel so much better when I do. So I will make it another goal for the year or 2012 to do like what I'm doing now by putting my textbooks aside and just making an effort to put out a post. Check out the new poll at the side in regards to the new year!

Love Always <3,
Katrina Lowell